am i dead? / years to fight lyrics

am i dead?

being kept in a corner, i play with the shadows
innocence was never there
now i'm grown up and messed up
and i don't know what to do
who are you

dismantled and spread all over the floor
i am the ash through wish a fire once roared
no self sanity, i am my own worst enemy
who is me

am i dead
i'm trying not to shed a tear
but all that runs through me is fear
am i insane or am i just lost in my pain
the only question in my head is
am i dead

society likes to torment us
no one will ever be what everyone wants us to be
it's sick and i feel i cannot escape
am i awake

paint a picture of my body then rip it to shreds
to get rid of all the voices in my head
an endless tunnel, a shapeless hole
a pitch black room they call my soul


am i a ghost that walks the earth
born to die straight from birth
am i a terrible person
because my heart is burning
a flame that cannot be extinguished
a truth that i cannot relinquish
a wound that can't be healed
a monster revealed

years to fight

a light
passed me by
in the night
and i never said goodbye

the new
outshined the old
through silver and gold
i sparkled

don't leave me to die like this
we're all looking for a beautiful kiss
but sometimes darkness overshadows light
and through my life i've learned a lot
how to conquer and how to not
but i feel like i've got so many more years to fight

i rose
from pedals of rose
and i glowed
it really showed

they knew
they all knew
that i shined through
the many few


it's really hard sometimes
love is so important, need it to survive
you'd think with all this money i'd find a guy
he must be hiding from my eyes