notoriety lyrics

They told me I would make it
They told me I would fit
And still I’m sitting on the outside
Like a piece of shit

They made me feel special
They made me feel good
But now the only things I feel are
Suicidal moods

They like to bring my hopes up
Then crash them all down
They like to parade me
About their town

They like to see the tears flow
They like to see them fall
They like to see them wiped away
Like nothing’s wrong at all

I killed myself for notoriety
I killed myself for notoriety
I killed myself for notoriety
I killed myself for notoriety

So when someone talks to me
I have to keep my space
I have to keep a distance
To actually feel safe

They fucked up my whole future
They ruined everything
They ripped me to shreds
And took my sanity

I have biggest trust issues
I do not like the crowds
I do not smile back at strangers
‘Cause of my self-doubt

I do not throw myself at people
Do not like to talk
I do not like to explain myself
Much to anyone

Chorus

They say I’m lost, they, they say I’m lost
But what they don’t know is that I like to be on my own
They say I need large amounts of therapy
But what they need to understand is I need to be free